wish i had someone to talk to . but lately , i see myself alone in a white and empty room

i was working and i came with this genial thought , a blurry and bright hope , a possible option : the plane crashing tomorrow, no , falling into the sea - i prefer the water. it doesn't depend on me , unfortunately , but i can beg secretly . A fall would be pefect : we all four disappear, and i wouldnt feel guilty for my sis as she would die too , . It's a dramatic way out , but theres the only way out i see now. I dont pray since i was little - Guess God never heard me so i gave up- , if i pray now i hope God hears me , i think it's fair. I had to come here write this and say Goodbye, quickly before i get caught , gotta get back to work - when can i open my math books ? have a lil time for me ? just at late night , but there im already exausted. whatever, it doenst matter now



'omg u can even imagine how big this house is , omg omg' - ' you've have so much too learn yet ,girl!' - 'you do nothing , you want your mum to die working , you dont care you dont help , blablablabla'
So many lies . ENOUGH

Listnn: Muse
The bitterness inside
Is growing like the new born